Thursday, May 31, 2007

Waiting to see

The Army Aviation Community is small. Every time Paul and I hear of another helicopter crash, we cringe and we wait.  Will it be a friend of ours this time?  Will it be one of the many pilots that Paul has trained over the years (Paul spent 3 years as an instructor pilot at Ft. Rucker)?

And if it isn't someone we know, is it someone one of our current friends/colleagues know?

Waiting is tough on us, when we are removed from the direct path of knowledge.  For the families of the units involved, it has got to be so much worse.

When Paul was in Afghanistan, it was the policy (at that time) to shut down personal/private communications until the family was notified of accidents and/or deaths.  Out of respect to the idea that the NOK should be the first to know, efforts were made to be sure that the news didn't leak out through unofficial channels. 

So even though the families are informed as soon as possible.. it's still got to be tough to hear the basic news reports on the tv and then sit and wait.  Your soldier can't contact you directly to let you know he/she is okay.  You have to wait. The NOK deserves to know first.  So you wait. You hope, you pray, you bargain... and you wait. And you hope you aren't the first to know.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

25 years, A retrospective

 
Looking back on my life
Through the eyes of a young girl,
growing older every day,
maybe a little wiser.
 
I can clearly see
All my mistakes are coming back
to visit me
warning of the roads not taken
 
Some things I'd like to change,
But one thing I'd do the same...
 
 
I'd choose you again,
If God gave me the chance to  do it all again
I'd carefully consider every choice and then
Out of all the boys in the world
I'd choose you again.
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How do you measure 25 years? While I know that everyone's 25 years are going to contain different milestones... here are some of the ones that Paul and I have hit over the last 25 years.
 
1 miscarriage
3 births = 2 daughters and 1 son
15 moves
7 surgeries (for daughter)
2 deaths of family members
5 deaths of service member friends
4 weddings in the family (not counting ours)
3 nieces
5 nephews
6 years of military induced separations
1 marital separation ( short lived, but still)
4 years of dating before marriage
And the realization that comes from weathering all the storms, that if you are going to go through hell on earth, this one person.. is the one that you want by your side as you go through it!
 
Happy Anniversary Paul!  I love you!
 

Monday, May 28, 2007

Take Back Memorial Day

Every once in a while I run across an opinion that says what I am feeling so much more eloquently than I could.  Here is the link for the whole article- Take Back Memorial Day .

Here is the part I was especially moved by and wanted to be sure everyone had the chance to see.

 

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Take Back Memorial Day written by Christopher Michel

This freedom is a gift across time, given most often anonymously.  And now it is Memorial Day.  How can Americans take it back and do right by the valor that created this day?

By action.  For starters, the National Moment of Remembrance resolution asks that at 3 PM local time on Memorial Day all Americans should “voluntarily and informally observe in their own way a moment of remembrance and respect, pausing from whatever they are doing for a moment of silence.”

Beyond that, Americans can honor the dead by supporting the living, especially those who serve.  Send a note or visit the family of a servicemember who has died.  Visit a veteran who is convalescing.  Make a donation to the Tragedy Assistance Program for Survivors, Armed Forces Relief Trust, or the Armed Services YMCA.  Volunteer to work with local veterans’ groups. Encourage your employer to publicly recognize the veterans who work with you.  Better yet, commit to hire veterans or military spouses in the coming year.

Visit the graves of fallen soldiers.  Leave a flower on the stone.  Consider the grave and behold the cost of freedom.

Or simply shake a Soldier’s hand.  Support for the troops is more than a sticker on an SUV.  Whatever we do, let’s make it personal, not commercial.

Let us take back Memorial Day, not for abstract ideas or guilt for having forgotten, but to pay a debt.  To remember—and to act on the memory—is the least we can do for the men and women who said, “I will die so strangers’ lives will be better.”  Make Memorial Day a personal reflection of a stranger’s costly gift.

Thank you, MySpace

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Iraq's War Dead Live On - Online
Associated Press  |  May 28, 2007
WASHINGTON - Army Pvt. Clinton Tyler McCormick is buried in Florida, but his photo and his words are still online. They haven't changed since he logged in to his MySpace.com profile on Dec. 26, 2006 - the day before he was killed by a makeshift bomb in Baghdad.

In earlier wars, families had only the letters that Soldiers sent home; often, bits and pieces were removed by cautious censors. Iraq is the first war of the Internet age, and McCormick is one of many fallen Soldiers who have left ghosts of themselves online - unsentimental self-memorials, frozen and uncensored snapshots of the person each wanted to show to the world.

Army Pfc. Johnathon Millican of Trafford, Ala., wrote on his MySpace page before he was killed in Karbala, Iraq: "You don't have to love the war but you have to love the warrior."

"I am a paratrooper, that means that I jump from a perfectly good airplane into who knows what," wrote Millican, who was 20 when he died. He never had the chance to move back to the southern United States, as his profile says he wanted to do.

McCormick, 21 when he died, also was from the South. "Dixie boy," his profile proclaims in big letters outlined in red. His photograph is a faraway headshot with an ironing board propped up against a white wall in the background. McCormick isn't smiling.

Bob Patrick, an Army veteran who runs the Veterans History Project at the Library of Congress, says, "War as we know it and as we're taught through schools, in most cases it's through the filter ... of a historian." MySpace pages, he says, "are grass-roots stories on the foxhole level, or the cockpit level."

YOUNG DEAD

The phenomenon is growing because the war dead are young - as of March 24, more than three-fourths of those killed in Iraq were 30 years old or younger - and comfortable putting personal information online.

"A lot of the younger Soldiers, especially young enlisted Soldiers, have a MySpace page," says Army Sgt. Tom Day, one of the living who has served three tours in Iraq and is currently deployed to Kuwait. MySpace has more than 100 million registered users.

The result has been pictures of war that are "much more personal and much more public," said the History Project's Patrick. "That's a function of technology."

The number of Soldiers who leave behind online profiles could drop after the Pentagon's recent announcement that servicemembers deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan won't be able to access MySpace and other social Web sites from Defense Department computers. But the new rules don't affect commercial or private computers - so Soldiers will still be able to create profiles from their homes in the U.S. before they leave. They can also use Internet cafes or commercial connections to maintain their profiles from Iraq and Afghanistan.

Even if the Pentagon blocks Soldiers from accessing MySpace, Facebook or other sites, people will find a way to use the latest technologies to remember the fallen, said Peter Bartis, a senior program specialist at the Veterans History Project.

"There is a part of the human psyche that wants to memorialize important people in their lives and important places," Bartis said. "I think that cutting it off is interfering with a normal human behavior and that human behavior will find another way of doing it."

MySpace, a unit of News Corp., has had to deal with the issue. "We often hear from families that a user's profile is a way for friends to celebrate the person's life, giving friends a positive outlet to connect with one another and find comfort during the grieving process," said Dani Dudeck, a MySpace spokeswoman.

MySpace won't delete a profile for inactivity, and it also won't let anyone else control a deceased member's profile.

Family and friends can create different memorial profiles as long as they comply with the site's rules, and families can have a fallen Soldier's profile deleted.

That could be a relief to some families because profiles suddenly frozen sometimes violate the tradition of not speaking ill of the dead. Some profiles linked to Soldiers' names include references to using illegal drugs or ethnic slurs for Iraqis. And some pages are rife with the profanity often forgiven in war zones.

"Soldiers are Soldiers, and Soldiers use language when they're in the middle of battle that they wouldn't use at home," said Patrick.

Before his death in Iraq last year, Army Pfc. Nathaniel Given of Dickinson, Texas, posted a survey on his MySpace page that posed the question, "Do you swear?"

He answered: "What the (expletive) do you think, I'm in the infantry."

PUBLIC GRIEF

The profiles also have become public outlets and displays for grieving loved ones. Sgt. Day said that if the worst happened to him, he would want his MySpace profile to stay up. "I would hope people would save their photos and remember the good times we had and not dwell too much on how I went," he said.

Rev. John Harwell, who ministered to Pvt. McCormick at the Evangel Temple Assembly of God church in Jacksonville, Fla., discovered the Army private's page after he died. "We left up MySpace for people as a guestbook sort of, for people to come and give thoughts and condolences," Harwell said in an interview.

McCormick, who went by his middle name, Tyler, had a tough family life, Harwell said. He was adopted at age 6, but didn't get along with his adopted mother and spent some time living with another member of the church.

"He really didn't have a family, it's one of the reasons he went into the military," Harwell said. "When we read MySpace, we said, 'Who are all these people that Tyler was connected with, that we've never known before?'"

They are MySpace "friends" who have left comments attached to his profile - they didn't have to visit a grave and leave flowers to say goodbye. Months later, some are still coping.

"I can't believe this. It's my worst fear come true. I don't know how I'm ever going to be able to accept this ... to know that you're not coming home to me and I'll never get to see your face and hold you in my arms where you belong," Stacey Zeller, Tyler McCormick's fiance, wrote the day after he died.

Zeller, a 20-year-old student at the State University of New York-Canton, said in an e-mail to The Associated Press that she and McCormick planned to marry when he got out of the military. She said he sent a mysterious package from Iraq with instructions not to open it until he came home on leave, scheduled for February.

She opened it when she found out he had died. "It was an engagement ring along with the wedding band," she said.

She posts on his MySpace page because it helps her deal with losing him. "It's a way for me to feel like I can still communicate to him, still get my thoughts and feelings out," she said.

"You and God are where I pull my strength from every day," she wrote on March 19, months after McCormick's death, "just to get out of bed and continue on."

Saturday, May 26, 2007

There HAS to be a special place in Hell for people like this.

My heart and prayers go out to the family of Cameron Smith.
 
Police Say Iraq GI's Son Beaten to Death
AP
 
Chicago Tribune

Talk About It:
CALUMET CITY, Ill. (May 26) - A man beat his girlfriend's 4-year-old son to death after she left the boy in his care while she was deployed to Iraq , police said.

Donell Parker, 23, was charged Friday with first-degree murder in the death of Cameron Smith. The boy was found dead in his bed Thursday in a suburb south of Chicago.

Parker told police he beat the boy, but would not say why, said Calumet City police Chief Patrick O'Meara.

Cameron was punched in the head, stomach and chest, and whipped with a belt from Tuesday to Wednesday evening, O'Meara said. An autopsy found he died of blunt-force trauma to the abdomen and head, O'Meara said.

The boy's 7-year-old sister and 8-year-old brother had also been in Parker's care, O'Meara said. They were put in the custody of their maternal grandparents after Cameron was found dead.

Cameron's mother, Sgt. Lavanda Smith, 28, was headed back to Illinois Friday after spending only ten hours at her new duty station in Iraq.

She was called to active duty in April with her Army National Guard unit and was sent to Fort Benning, Ga., on May 12 in preparation for deployment, said Lt. Col. Alicia Tate-Nadeau, an Illinois National Guard spokeswoman.

Family members said Cameron's father, Gary Smith Jr., 27, had been deployed to Iraq last August and last saw his three children on a brief leave in January. O'Meara said the children's parents were separated.

Family members said the Smiths had been married for eight years, and had both been in the military most of that time. O'Meara said Lavanda Smith had apparently been living with Parker for about a year.

Parker was scheduled to appear Saturday in bond court in suburban Markham, Ill. An official at the Cook County Circuit Court on Saturday could not immediately identify Parker's lawyer.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Let's Talk about the Elephant (and I don't really mean me)!

Well.. I procrastinated a bit too long on Tuesday and I missed the meeting, but did manage to get there in time to get an "official" weigh-in. 

I'm back up to 232.4.... not all the way to the starting point.. so there's at least that to be grateful about.

I haven't been in much of a mood to count points since I've got back from my mother.  I do alright through lunchtime and then it all goes to heck in a handbasket by dinner time.

But.. I've pulled out my sewing machine and I'm using my afternoons (starting this week) to sew quilt patches.  I love making quilts and I won't eat while I do them because I don't want to muss the fabric. It's working so far. 

I'm going to pull out the "big guns" starting tomorrow and start my exercise program again. I love how I feel when I get done, but if I wait too long in the morning to do it, I just can't get myself up and going.

I did walk 2 miles Tuesday afternoon, so there's a start. Next weigh in is on Tues. May 29th... mine and Paul's 25th Anniversary.

We are going to celebrate our anniversary and my birthday all wrapped up into one weekend on June 16-17.  We are heading to the Baltimore Oriole/Arizona Diamondback game and then spending the night at a B & B in Baltimore..Iam SO looking forward to it :)

Thursday, May 24, 2007

One sad ending

For the Anzack family:  I can't imagine the horror or the sorrow in realizing that your son is gone. My heart breaks for him and for you.

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BAGHDAD - A body recovered by Iraqi police from the Euphrates River south of Baghdad was identified as one of three American Soldiers abducted in an ambush claimed by al-Qaida, the military said Thursday.

Military officials told the family of Pfc. Joseph Anzack Jr. that a commanding officer identified the remains recovered from the river, but that DNA tests were still pending.

"They told us, 'We're sorry to inform you the body we found has been identified as Joe,'" the Soldier's aunt, Debbie Anzack, said Wednesday. "I'm in disbelief."

Anzack, 20, vanished along with the two others after their combat team was ambushed May 12 about 20 miles outside Baghdad. Five others, including an Iraqi, were killed in the ambush, subsequently claimed by al-Qaida.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

For Stacy

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Copy and paste the questions into the comment section and replace my answers with yours.

littleball5JS.gif 1. On a typical day if you were not heard from, at what time would someone start to worry?  Who would notice first?

I doubt anyone would worry any time soon.  I am notorious for losing track of time. I have often sat in restaurants talking with friends until chased out at close of business.  I'm going to say.. at least 24 hours.  And Kim  would notice first.

 

littleball5JS.gif 2. My favorite guilty pleasures are:

Heroes of Might and Magic V, a good book, a long soak in a tub. Guilty because I usually steal time away from something I should be doing to do these things.

littleball5JS.gif 3. The one thing I want to do before I die that I haven't done yet is:

LOL.. that's a hard one. Be at my goal weight!

littleball5JS.gif 4. My worst vice is:

Anger... it takes a lot to get me there, but once I'm there it is NEVER pretty, or constructive.

littleball5JS.gif 5. Name three things you would do with the money if you won the lottery? (PLEASE don't be pompous and say I would go to work the very next day and not do anything differently )

1. hire a personal trainer

2. get what ever plastic surgery I need to feel good about myself (after the personal trainer was done)

3. Finish my degree.. even if I never do anything with it.. it's like my holy grail now.

littleball5JS.gif 6. Are you living the life you always thought you would live?  If not, why?

I couldn't imagine life being much better than it is now, but NO, there are definitely some things I'd do different. Trouble is, certain changes would not find me HERE at this point... and I could not imagine the loss of certain things along the way.

littleball5JS.gif 7. What food(s) do you just HATE?

as in would hurl rather than eat it? Tofu. and regular fish (I love salmon and tuna).

littleball5JS.gif 8. Who's life would you like to experience for a day? (again, please no pompous "no one, I only want to be me" stuff. )

But seriously, I only want to be me.  But if I have to do this doppleganger thing.. then I want to be someone that is rich, famous and talented.. maybe Angelina Jolie?  or Faith Hill?  

littleball5JS.gif 9. What material item is on the top of your wish list right now? (a wish list means you can *want* anything, no matter how expensive or selfish )

Well the nomad life is getting to me again. I have to admit I think the next move is going to include another swing at homeownership.  so... a new home.

littleball5JS.gif 10 Favorite candy:

Snickers

littleball5JS.gif 11. One thing that you would never guess about me is:

At one point in time, I practiced the Wiccan faith and I can read Tarot cards.

littleball5JS.gif 12. I wouldn't be caught dead ________?

voting Democrat!!!!!!!!!!!!!  LOL.. actually... I can honestly say, the one thing at this point in time that I won't be caught doing is being in a no-sleeve shirt in public. WILL NEVER HAPPEN!

littleball5JS.gif 13. My favorite color is:

Green...  it's a soothing color that helps with my anger issues.

littleball5JS.gif 14. What was your favorite childhood memory?

On my dad's days off, if my mom had to work, he would spend them with the three of us, fishing , or picnicing.. something... he always took us out and about.

littleball5JS.gif 15. Your best body part:

My smile and my butt. No matter how big or small I am, my butt is always fabulous.

littleball5JS.gif 16. Dream job:

Photojournalist

littleball5JS.gif 17.What is the bravest thing you have ever done?

In Jr. High, I began standing up against bullies. Not just the ones that would bother me, but for other kids too.  I had finally reached a point where I wasn't afraid of bullies anymore, and I was determined that they wouldn't wreak havoc at our school.

littleball5JS.gif 18. Favorite movie:

Grease,  Must Love Dogs, The Truth about Cats and Dogs, Air Force One, The Patriot

 

littleball5JS.gif 19. Give yourself a compliment:

I am a pretty loyal friend.  Once you are in my heart, even if we never speak again, I will never forget you. And I will always mourn that we do not see each other.

littleball5JS.gif 20. Something you love that other people probably don't know about...... a food, music group, TV show, vacation spot, clothing line, cleaning tip ANYTHING that you think is worth sharing that others most likely have never heard of.

I'm usually "johnny come lately", so I doubt there is anything I love that someone else doesn't already know about. ... but here is my list of the fabulous things I cannot live without:

Tide spot pen (it really works),

Vitalicious muffins .. cheaper through the internet www.vitalicious.com

Get Color (HGTV's answer for the color phobic)

Spinach Tortellini.  YUMMO!

 

 

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Struggling with accountability.. AKA Whining

I am supposed to be getting ready to go to my WW meeting.  I have not attended since the Tuesday before I went to my mother's.  I'm nervous.  I know it doesn't really mean anything to the folks there if I gain or lose..I mean.. they support me either way.  But I feel that if I go today I will be letting them down.. and me too.

Considering I've already paid for the month I should go.  I might as well get a good grip on where I am at this point and then get back to working the plan.  How bad can it really be?  I think that if I don't go, I'll be letting myself down.  Fence-sitting can be so self-absorbed, can't it?

 

Okay.. I'm off.. I'll go... how bad can it really, really be?

Friday, May 18, 2007

Prayer for the missing

We have three missing GI's to add to our previous one (Keith Maupin). Please offer up a prayer that they are all found.

 

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Prayer for the Missing

O, Blessed Mother and St. Joseph,
you searched when your Son Jesus
disappeared when he was twelve.
You would not give up
until he was found.
You know the pain of having someone missing,
and the joy of finding them,
as you found your son.
Help those who are searching now,
to find the answers to their questions,
and an end to their searching.
Inspire people to be vigilant,
so that their eyes and ears
may see and hear news that will bring hope.
Comfort those who feel lonely and sad
because the one they love has vanished.
Be with them in the storm
and guide them in their efforts.
We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Surprising lack of damage

So, I missed my WW meeting yesterday because Kendra had a dental appointment at the same time. I can't say that I wasn't unhappy about missing that appointment.  I wasn't sure how much damage had happened to the diet while at my mom's.

Did I mention how she had two cakes waiting for us?  She'd also made cookies and had bought some turnovers.  The turnovers were easy to resist.. but that was about the only thing I did pass on.

Still, this morning I got on my scale because I intend to be successful this time around and I have to know what damage I'm lookin at.  I'm happy to say that my scale actually showed a .2 loss since my weigh in last week. 

It is my intention to make the Saturday meeting so that I do get a weigh in for this week. Next week I'll be back to my Tuesday meetings.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Lots of excuses, but not trying to hide

So.. I had an awesome time at my mom's this weekend.  Thursday night we went to Garcia's.  This is the restaurant that started out as a little neighborhood place and grew into a chain.  The original family still owns the 35th ave location and this is where we eat when we go.

(Garcia's was Paul's introduction to mexican food. It didn't go well.. but he was a good sport about the whole thing. He asked me to recommend something that wasn't "too hot"... I suggested the tostada (my personal favorite and one that I thought wasn't too hot).  Discovered that night that there were chili peppers laced through out the whole thing... you really couldn't get away from them. I swear I wasn't trying to kill him... I guess I was just used to it by then.) 

Friday morning Susan, Mom and I went to the casinos to try our luck.  We (Susan and I) were hoping some of that luck my mother has would rub off on us.  We did alright.  I think Susan might have won a bit more than me.  I didn't lose too much.. it was one of those days where you win a few dollars, lose a few dollars.. back and forth until finally you say "enough".   I did not come home broke.

Saturday the four of us met up at a portrait studio for family pictures.  We haven't done a family picture since the year before my dad died.  After the picture, we went back to my brother's house and had a BBQ.  It was a good time.  My brother has adopted a dog while I've been gone.  A big Great Dane by the name of Butler.  Handsome dog, and well behaved.  Maybe this is the type of dog I should get Mac.

Sunday we had a quiche that Susan concocted.  Then we girls went out to the casinos again for a few hours.  Art met us back at the house for dinner.  It was a good time.  Lots of reminiscing, lots of laughter.

Monday I spent all day in various airports, making my way back to Maryland.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Bleary-eyed Random Meme

I found the following meme at Russ'  random meme this morning... I just got home from my weekend at Mom's .. but had to check e-mails and alerts because I'm just that dedicated... then I saw this meme (thanks Russ) and I just HAD to fill it out before crashing.

MEME QUESTIONS FROM ALL OVER THE PLACE....

What were you doing at midnight last night?  Sleeping

Do you go to church? Not as often as I should. 

What did you eat for breakfast this morning? toast, milk, tortilla (redundent, I know.. but they were homemade)

Who is your Mature (Older Man/Woman) Crush:  Sean Connery

Are you for world peace?:  Who could possibly be against World Peace?

Have you ever been involved with the police?:  Apart from the family and friends that belong to the Phoenix PD, I was once stopped by a cop at 4 AM for driving up and down a street with the headlights off.  I was young and foolish and planning to TP the house of a friend.  My target got off free that night..he he he

Have you ordered anything by mail in the past week?  I bought my MIL her gift through E-bay this week.

What did you want "to be" when you were a child?  My ambitions were many when I was a child. Lawyer, nurse, photojournalist all played a part at one time or another.  But the one thing I always knew I'd "be" was a mother.  Hopefully, I did all right in this area. Time will tell.

How would you go about purifying your own soul?  I'm thinking self-flagellation must play a part in this.  

If you had to guess two people at work were having an affair, which two would pair up? Why? [please don't give full names] I think Susan is ready to embark on an affair with Steve.  But first she has to get rid of her house guest.

Take the third letter of your name and tell 5 things you have in the house that begin with that letter.  "T"  Table, tests (homeschooling guarantees there are tests in this house somewhere), toilet paper (I hope), Tomatoes (I saw those in the fridge while looking for a quick snack), and Tide (the detergent)

 

 

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Commitment and Mother's Day

Motivational Quote - There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results.

So SparkPeople have these new motivational quotes with pictures (quite of few which show people running).  I liked this one, so snagged it for today's entry.

I have to say that I am really enjoying the WW meetings.  I thought that I would be bored and/or feeling very "been there,done that" during the meetings.  But instead the speakers have been very motivational and in the two meetings thus far, each topic has definitely been something I needed to hear.

One of the things that I am enjoying so far is that each week, besides the time spent in the meeting, the WW group here sends out a postcard that I receive within a day or two of my meeting. The first one was welcoming me to the group, the one this week was congratulating me on my success thus far. Sweet, huh?

I feel that this is something I can commit to until I am back on my "diet feet".  Knowing that I have something that is monitoring my progress is certainly helpful in keeping me watchful of my choices.  I didn't think that would be the case since I always rebelled against "authority" as a young person, but maybe I am finally ready to be accountable.

Today I leave for "home".  My sister and I are spending Mother's Day with our mom.  I don't think we've both been home (at the same time) since 2003, so I am looking forward to all of us (my brother lives in town already) being together.  We "kids" have decided to sit for a portrait on Saturday for our Mother's Day gift.  If we can manage it, we're also going to try to  get Mom into one of the pics of the group and an individual of her as well.  We'll see.

So.. in preparation for staying on target at least for today, I am packing my lunch to take with me on my flights.  I'm going to do the best I can while at my mom's, but we have a pretty full agenda which includes a lot of eating out.  Susan and I are planning on exercising every morning and to help that along we are each bringing an exercise DVD to share.  It's only four days.. I should be able to do that, right? LOL

Well.. to all the mothers out there, and to all the women that are important in a child's life, I hope you have a happy mother's day.  I hope that for a day, those that love you best let you know this  in the sweetest ways possible. 

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Weight Watcher End of Week one

Damn, I think I may be on to something here.  I planned every meal this week.  Saturday I hit an unexpected snafu when the restaurant that we picked had no "light" menu items.  I did the best I could, but I used up half my flex points. 

Still, I'm pretty happy with my end of week totals.  More to the point, at my meeting today I weighed in 3.2 pounds lighter than last week.

Now, I just need to plan for my week at my mother's.  I leave on Thursday and I'll be back Monday night.. just in time to make my meeting on Tuesday. 

 

Thursday, May 3, 2007

First Pictures from the Prom

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Leaving Denial Behind

My time in denial was bittersweet.  I could eat what I wanted when I wanted and no little voices nagged me.  Unfortunately, the lack of nagging voices allowed me to pile on a few more pounds.  All during April I intended to be out of denial and back to working on my weight loss goals.  But somehow, it just never really quite happened.

On May 1, I finally took the bull by the horns and made my way to a local WW meeting.  Now I've done WW before online and by myself. But I've never done the "go to a meeting and be accountable" way.  I decided it was time I did something that I think will be more positive.

I have a new starting weight (233), not thrilled..but so glad that I have finally nipped the upward trend in the bud. I enjoyed my first meeting to some degree.  Since I went to a noontime meeting, there were several women with very young children.  The very young children couldn't quite grasp the fact that their mothers wanted them quiet.  But what really got me... there were grown women that should know better talking over the leader! OY!  My mistake was sitting in the back of the room, so there was a lot of noise between the speaker and me.

I'm going to give this noontime meeting one more chance, but if it's just as noisy and disrespectful as this one was, I'm changing my meeting time.  What I'm not going to do is stop going.  I want to give this a few weeks to see if this was the boost that I needed.

The best part is that now I'm motivated to fill out my daily tracker and plan  out menus so I'm not left in the lurch with no plan. You know the old saying ... "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail."  Well.. I plan to succeed this time, so that means I have to plan!

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Telling the Dental Story

Okay...  a lot more days passed by than I intended, sorry about that. 

So... here's the story.. probably not as funny now as it was to me at the time...

Dr. K was very good with Kendra.  As I mentioned before he did a very detailed exam of her teeth.  He was able to find three cavities, two of which are very small, the other is "OMG how big can one cavity be" size, and still he doesn't believe it will need a root canal.... which by the way... that one isn't even in the tooth that Dr. P said the root canal might be needed.  Dr. K did comment that he'd be able to get a clearer view once he saw the x-rays (he didn't want to do a second set so soon after her last ones and I couldn't get them from Dr. P in time), but that he felt anything else might be so minor that just taking better care and using the fluoride rinse should be able to take care of those. (Did I mention that our public water does not have fluoride in it?).  He said that he likes to take a more conservative route because he hates messing up healthy teeth.

So, of course I want to transfer Kendra to Dr. K.  I believe that even if it turns out worse once he sees the x-rays, I'm still going to be more comfortable with his approach than I will be with the other dentist. Kendra also prefers Dr. K... and at her age, shouldn't she get a voice in this too?

As we were leaving on that Thursday, I filled out the release form to have her records transferred from Dr. P to Dr. K.  Now I have a dilemma, Kim likes Dr. P and wants to use him for her baby tooth extraction that has to happen before the Orthodontist can continue the work. ... but I think.. with mail service and all that.. I should be able to get Kim in and out of Dr. P's office before the request for the records transfer gets to them.

Ah.. the beauty and wonder of the electronic age!  I called Dr. P's office to set up Kim's appointment (I was able to get her in the next day, a friday).  I was thrilled and thought I'd get off scott-free when the receptionist suddenly says..

 Did I just see a request for Kendra's records to be transferred? .....

Me: umm. yes

Her: Is that correct?  You would like us to transfer these records?

Me: umm yes.

Her: Okay.. we'll see you tomorrow for Kim.

I don't know why I was so concerned about having to say anything to them.. but most places are likely to ask why and try to resolve the situation.  I guess I really just didn't want to have to get in a dialogue with them about WHY Kendra and I didn't want to continue with that dentist.

 

myspace layouts, myspace codes, glitter graphics Today I saw the male hygienist at Dr. K's for my cleaning. I'm not sure why Denise didn't like him. He was very nice, very professional and very gentle. I'm glad I had to see him first though, because now I'm pretty sure it was just a personality conflict and not anything worse.